31 THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE

me @ 1 year and a half


1. Sky dive

2. Learn how to ride a bike, a motorcycle and learn how to swim

3. Learn how to play the violin, guitar and master piano skills

4. Help the less fortunate by joining medical missions. Be a philanthropist.

5. Travel to discovered and undiscovered places.

6. Be an OR nurse.

7. Witness the Aurora Borealis with my VIP in life

8. Learn how to sew

9. Scale Mt. Apo

10. Learn baking

11. Learn a foreign language ( Spanish, French or Italian)

12. Have my own closet like Kimora's

13. Shopping spree in a bookstore

14. Read a book. So many books so little time.

15. Name the stars and its constellation

16.Go to the Library of Congress

17. Learn target shooting and archery ( archery is my brother's sport back when he was young)

18. Learn to tattoo. Even just one small design is more than enough for me.

19. Sing a song without getting out of tune.

20. Enjoy and experience motherhood. Three is too many, one is too few, two is enough but I could settle for only one. I will be more than happy then.

21. Join an immersion program with an indigenous group for at least a week .

22. Meet my first crush back when I was still in first grade.

23. Make my Mama proud and happy.

24. Road trip from Appari to Sulu

25. A happy family reunion with my sisters, brother and their families and with my mother and step-father as well, with all problems and grudges settled.

26. Meet the guy who'll sing to me that certain song. When he does, i will ask him to marry me. hahaha!

27. Settle down with my kid/s and my VIP...uuhmmm and a dog.

28. Learn or try drifting cars.

29. Learn photography from the pro, my Brod.

30. To have my own shoe line that carries my size of course.

31. Swim with the dolphins.

HOW DO I MISS THEE? LET ME COUNT THE WAYS

My Caffeine Rehab Photo. :)


* Wishing how nice it is to sit under the stars and name them and its constellations.

* Sitting by the phone and hoping that he'd call and sing me a song again.

* Ding...Ding...Ding! Buzzing until you get a reply.

* Wondering when he's gonna wake you up and play Bingo chess like he used to.

* Missing how the kitchen smells when he's around.

* Used to hate it when he screams your name every time he needs something and now, you miss bringing him a glass of water or switching the light off for him.

* So pissed every time he pinches you with his toes like crabs do, and now you keep looking for such pain.

* "charm...charms....sweetheart" wake up calls which you used to hate and now you long for it.

* Staring at an empty space on the what if's, what could've been and what's it gonna be. :)

* Wishing he'd say "i miss you" so you could say "ditto". :)

* Sharing crispy laughter for nonsensical reasons because it's him you are spending time with. :)

* Wondering whatever happened to my free falling. Blag! :)

* When you don't want to give up caffeine because caffeine makes you a happy camper. :)

* Missing that "kilig" feeling every time you see that certain flag. :)

* Logging on the internet and checking if he's online or if he had left you an offline message. :)


Missing someone feels good when you know that he misses you back. It's sad when you know that the feeling isn't mutual.




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PRE + BEFORE = YESTERDAY

Dear You!


I miss those times before the Kawayan Firewall with lots of Corn Chips. I guess, this is how it really feels when you're forced to put yourself into rehab... EMPTY!


Me :(


Christmas Without You by Zee Avi




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THE FILLER

Photo by: Nicole Mae Francisco-Nalupa

The loss of a relationship can be hurting so immensely. But before jumping from one relationship to another; before you'll give your full trust, respect and love again; before meeting the so-called "the one", here comes the filler.

He's the one who'd make you laugh even when you don't feel like laughing. Even at his corniest jokes and not so funny ones, he has this ways that will make you laugh your heart out.

He's your Tylenol. He's the reason that you find laughter again. He makes all things better.

He's the one who does tricks to amaze and amuse you even when you're the type who is skeptical on magic or tricks.

At your lowest point in life, he inspires you to do better and be better. Like anybody else, you can rise from where you fell and there's nothing to be ashamed of it.

He's the one who respects you to the maximum like nobody else does.

He's the one who never cares about your past and neither would you care about his.

He's the one who gives spark when there's no spark at all. He makes you feel he's the guy that the signs has been telling you.

He's the one that brings romance that helps your life to get back in track.

He's the one who gives you extra attention when you needed one.

He's the one you love but not "in" love with. You want to be "in" love with him and wishes that he's the one but looking at the bigger picture, he's not the one after all.He's the one who fills up what's empty and what's been missing.
He's the one but not really.

SURREAL YET SO REAL

For me, Surreal...

... is when my friend and I happened to have the same dream at the same time.

... is when I lost my ballet shoes and looked all over yet I found it in some odd place.

... is when my car engine was overheating and I was in a hurry then, I opened the car radiator and boiling water squirted to my face down to my neck. I rushed to my bedroom and applied petroleum jelly. After an hour, there were no blisters nor red marks.

... is when a firecracker, "triangle", blew in my hand and nothing happened. From then on, I don't lit a firecracker.

... is when you feel butterflies in your stomach and in no time, you get a buzz from a friend.

... is when you get along with someone you just met without knowing why.

... is when you miss someone you just met with no reason at all.



Things happen with valid reasons. If you doubt why something happens to you, you will never enjoy life's surprises and life's mysteries. Life may be complex yet wonderful.



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